xmasons.com - 2000.oct.19

An observation: after most relationships have ended, we reinvent ourselves. What I mean by this is that we do things we would have never thought of doing in our predictable lives. Be it experimenting with lifestyles, getting a tattoo, or a road trip around the country. The reason, I believe, is that when in a relationship it is so comfortable that we do not want to change. It seems change is bad. Yet when the turmoil at the end of the relationship occurs, change is undeniably present. You begin to question every thing about yourself and your surroundings. You question what you've been missing in life. What are some of the things that you have always wanted to do, but have never done?

There are some things in my life that have sat in the back portion of my brain for a long time. Some thoughts have been there for decades screaming to get out, and owing to the fact that so much change is occurring do they seem like good ideas right now. This has become a rebirth of sorts. I now have the opportunity to explore paths in my life that I couldn't do due to personal repression. And I should take advantage of this chance because who knows when the next time may be.